Big, Strong and Cute

Two days ago I set Ian down on his blanket for some belly time and he immediately rolled onto his side - he was only a half inch from the tipping point to rolling over. Amazing! When did he learn this?? Everyday he does something new. It's crazy how fast he's growing. At the same time I hardly notice it because I am with him everyday. I go back to school full time today and Ian goes to Day Care. This is hard for me. One part of me is excited to start using my brain again and getting back to my old life - the other is heart broken that I will be away from him everyday. Yesturday evening Ian woke up screaming from what I can only assume was a nightmare. I tried everything before just holding him tight in my arms did the trick. Will the stranger that is taking care of him now be able to soothe him? Will she even bother? Will he be the subject of some alien experiment? Will I not be around when he first rolls over? These are the questions that bring me to tears. I think I am doing the right thing for him by finishing my degree so I can get a job and his daddy can maybe go part-time to take care of the little guy. I don't know. I just hope I made a good choice and he will be happy and safe.