Fall is my favorite time of year and it's only going to get better. It's a quiet chilly fall morning - one of the first of the year. It's Sunday and Aaron has the day off. Yesturday at the market I picked up some Mac's and Bartlett Pears and I think it is a perfect day for some baking. Ahhh... the first apple pie of the season. Mmmm... I love fall for the smell of the air, the color of the trees, the harvest, and because of halloween and my birthday. And soon it will mean so much more with the birth of little pea. This is the first day in a while where Aaron and I don't have any plans, no errands to run, no packing or unpacking to do. Just looking forward to a long day of doing nothing together. I'm going to relish it because I believe everyone when they say these days will be gone soon, not to come back till the kids are all off to college (I hope!).
I feel at peace today after spending the last two days panicing about this idea of being a mother. It's an awfully big commitment and one that there is no getting out of. I rationalized getting married because I figured if I screwed it up too badly I could always opt out of the commitment but this one is REALLY forever. Since my marriage to Aaron just gets better everyday I guess I didn't make a mistake there so I have hope that I won't screw up motherhood too badly. I've talked to a few real life professional mommas and they have been great about telling me the hardest thing about motherhood is letting go. That I am not in charge of how my child turns out - I can only provide an example and teach them what I know. The rest is the individual journey we all must make - mistakes and all. After all I didn't exactly take the recommended path to adulthood but in the end I think I turned out ok. Aaron and I will do the best we can just as millions of parents before us and let god sort out the rest.
Ok too much philosophy. One of the gifts Aaron and I have to give is our ability to bake so Apple pie here I come!! Yum.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Chilly Fall Day
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
6 comments:
you guys will make wonderful parents - i have every confidence!
and . . . i can almost smell the pie from here, it sounds like a wonderful way to spend a day
love ya both
PIE did someone say pie!! YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMY! Save me a slice
That's what I miss about living down here...when in Indiana, we had the apple tree in the back yard, and made pies off of it in the fall. (we also had a Cherry tree, but the birds would pick in clean in about 4 hours, so we never got any) Down here, we have Orange, but you can't make an Orange Pie.....
mmmmmm... hot apple pie with vanilla ice cream melting on top for dessert... manicotti stuffed with cheese, spinach and pancetta smothered in homemade sauce, basil from the garden, fresh mozzarella melted on top for dinner... the peanut is spoiled and so am I. And I hope everyone knows they are always welcome at our table. Sunday is a good day to catch a homemade meal.
Okay, now you are just taunting us!!
Come and visit Whit! Aaron will cook for you - we'll make him. So hey, I assume you want footprints for the scrapbook. Are you still planning on coming down with you mom for the birth? If so bring your paper and we'll have them print you up some.
Post a Comment